I've gotten a couple of "where ya been" sorta messages lately. I haven't written much here in the past few months, for several reasons. First, the rugrat is far more demanding now. Constant workus interruptus translates into working evenings, when all I really wanna do is chill with The Family Unit. This blog among countless blogs has seemed, of late, to be unimportant to me. I started it to keep my mind alive and hopefully create discussions that had been lacking in my life on weekdays. Pets are limited conversationally. The home office situation has many nice advantages, but socializing is not among them.
I didn't wanna bug Nik or friends at work, so except for the odd work calls and meetings, "Waan-Go ousside?" was typically the most involved verbage I uttered for the better part of quite some time. Something had to be done, or my brain was going to shrivel into a raisin.
Then the baby came along and nothing has been as important since. Or better since. But my daily dialogues improved only slightly. Before Tess, my major daily utterances included things like, "how can you STILL be licking yourself?!" and "if you MUST barf a hairball, can you pleeeease do it on the hardwoods instead of the living room rug?", which has never once worked. Now, my typical dialogue has been upgraded to ABCs, Sesame Street ditties, "isn't that yummy?" "more milk? more? no?", "Did you get cuter again overnight?", and some normal talk that I know she won't understand, thrown in for good measure, and for my own sake.
Then there's the fact that ya just can't always write. Even though these are one-off ramblings, it's still writing, and you still need a catalyst. A comment from my bud Ty was the catalyst for this. Writing anything, for me, requires some kind of trigger. Without one, days pass and I don't even think about this thing.
I've been in a long trough, the bottom of a sine wave. My head has been in the home. Lately I've avoided subjects that interest me and which tend to foment internal discussion (which pours out into this site) in favor of the comfort of routine.
It's also because I don't always get the kind of discussion that I'd hoped for, which tells me that I'm not making this thingy discussable (discussible?) enough. When some of your most discussed blog entries are about peanut butter in ice cream and the mystery of discarded bread end pieces, it's time to gravitate toward where the dialogue is, as dialogue is the point. Thusly, I'll end with this question: Why is it that I'm considered a freak for loving black licorice? Aren't you people tasting what I'm tasting?
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